Perfecting the art of starting over

This isn’t my first blog, and I doubt it will be my last. I’ve started and stopped so many over the years that I’ve lost count. Each time, I told myself, “This will be the one. I’ll keep it going.” And yet, life has a way of pulling me in different directions. Between the demands of work, personal projects, and the endless distractions that come with being human, it’s easy for something like a blog to fall by the wayside.

But this time, I want things to be different.

There’s a fire in me right now—a spark that feels different from anything I’ve felt before. Maybe it’s the honor of being crowned Mx. Maryland Leather 2025 and the responsibility that title carries. Maybe it’s the evolution of my work, focusing more deeply on queer erotica and activism. Or maybe it’s simply that I’ve found a voice I’m no longer willing to silence.

Whatever the reason, I’m making a promise to myself—and to you—that I’ll do my best to keep this blog alive.

Here, I want to share more than just updates about my work or events in my life. I want this space to be a reflection of my journey: the triumphs and the struggles, the beauty and the chaos. I’ll share the stories behind my photography, the lessons I’ve learned as a public speaker, and the moments that have shaped me as a queer activist and member of the leather community.

Will it be perfect? Absolutely not. But that’s the beauty of it. Life isn’t perfect, and neither am I. This blog will be a space for raw honesty, unapologetic expression, and the kind of vulnerability that connects us as humans.

So, here’s to new beginnings. Here’s to keeping this blog alive—not just for the sake of consistency, but because it feels important to document this chapter of my life. If you’re here reading this, thank you for joining me. I hope you’ll stick around to see where this journey takes us.

Let’s see if we can keep this one going together.

By Chris Jay